My Testimony

Good morning, how was your weekend? Spirit-filled I believe.

I can tell you boldly from my experience that there is nothing like having Jesus as a friend and a brother. Life is much more easier. There use to be a time I feel depressed and tired of living; everything that has to do with me seem to be wrong. I even went as far as blaming my parents for bringing me into this world full of emotional pain, disappointment and sadness. I used to wonder why I was not the presidents daughter or anywhere else where there is abundance. There were times I cry so bitterly because I could not have what I 'needed' talk less of 'wanted'. I felt like, what use is it living to please God and yet suffer.

Yes... the devil had me realll big. He messed up with my mind and I fell flat on my face for it.


Do you know what? I was not happy with the 'devil' either. Infact, I was better of as I was. So I turned back to God.

Then I realized that I have felt so out of place with God because I was just religious conscious. The motive for service was so so wrong; I believed that God is a magician that does "abrakadabra" to put things in place for me at all time whenever I needed him to do so. I had little understanding of the dimension of God's relationship with man after the death of Christ.

Whenever I read the scripture, I am usually elated by the "all other things that will be added to me" and the "riches in Glory" and the "shall not perish". I have come to discover that I have not been interested in God but I have always been focusing on the 'Gifts' and 'Goodies'. But now I know better.

To get the 'Gifts', I must have the God that gives the 'Gifts'. It is liken to wanting a favor from someone, the first thing you do is to establish a relationship on trust, then you have the boldness to ask for what you want.

It is exactly the same thing with God. So many of us come to God because of what we want to get from him and when those things are not forthcoming, we are disappointed and sad. God is not a fool. He made us and He knows our deepest thoughts and even our future. He knew us from our mother's womb. He knows our capabilities. He knows everything. Even the things that happens in the darkest places because darkness is light to Him Psalm 139.

God loves us so much it hurts (he got wiped and died). He wants us to come to Him. Loving God as much as He did won't hurt us as much as it hurts Him. We only need to let go and let God... God has given us abundance not as the world gives. Look beyond this world and you will see that God has given us everything to make us fulfilled.

From the fulness of His grace we have all received one blessing after  another... John 1: 16 NIV.

Now I know better. I love God so much and I just cannot find an expression for it in words (maybe I should speak in tongues to make Him understand what I mean) My life is never the same again. I have peace of mind.I might not have everything I want but I have all I need- Eternal Life.

This is my testimony!