I was just wandering why I kept
doing the things I had never wanted to do again because after doing those
things, I feel unattractive to the Grace of God.
I have been thought that
determination will not do the magic but only Grace could set me free from this
‘thing’ that easily entangles me. Only Grace could set me free from self
righteousness. Only Grace could take me to the everlasting realm I longed to
live through holiness and refined righteousness.
So I began to consciously look
out for Grace. I thought that Grace was a knowledge I needed to attain. I tried
to apply the principle of Grace. I forgot that Grace is a function of the
Spirit and not of the flesh. I tried to apply Grace to my human reasoning but I
ended up becoming my own grace. The inevitable result was that I got more
entangled.
If you have ever felt this way,
you are not an alien.
